* + to "Why fucking me//Janet Fucking Jackson posts"

on 2/23, i started something with someone.

He was super nice to me. Got me into thinking. Later then I found out he is in a relationship with someone in China, coming back soon *Alarm 1!*.

2 wks before she is back, he started something with me in bed *Alarm 2*.

The situation bought out the competitive side of me... My lack of self control pushed me into this cliff.



For the 1st 2 months, the free falling was pretty fun. But, all the rest were mostly tears. Finally, I have reached the bottom, after withdrawing from school for a semester, after some suicidal attempts... after 10 more months of limbo.

I refused to believe how selfish he is to me and insignificate I am to him...
Finally, I have seen enough to let go and believe...

There are no good boys/ Bad boys.
They are just people who are good for each other//bad for each other.


We might be good for each other when we were duped up on lovewe are bad for each other now.


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and I am not planning to update anything on this board..
this post is just to finish off what I have started on 2/23.